“Don’t drink the water!”

I absolutely hate that saying. Hate. It. Give me the water and I’d gladly drink it all day! Not that I necessarily want to be pregnant right now, but as an infertile I have a certain aversion to this particular little saying.

And today at work I heard it. Again.

While I was trying to conceive,  4 girls at work got pregnant and had babies.  One of those girls had TWO babies before I was pregnant with my take home baby. Two other girls were pregnant at the same time as me, one had her baby 3 days after me and the other 10 weeks after.

Yes,  there are a lot of women of child bearing age at work. And many of them have been pregnant in the last 3 years. Hence the popular saying around the office, “Don’t drink the water!” (Har har har…)

What pisses me off so much is I am looped into this little joke. I’m counted as one of the many pregnant people who apparently drank the water. And I am always quick to let these people know that “the water didn’t work for me.”

No, it took a little more than that to get this momma pregnant. It took a year’s worth of clomid. A tubal pregnancy that took my unborn baby and my fallopian tube. A miscarriage that devastated my very heart and soul. It took letrozole when the clomid failed. Months of driving 2 hours away to see a specialist. Needles in my belly. Uncontrollable mood swings that caused me to dislike myself. It took a doctor and a catheter to impregnate me, instead of a beautiful night with my husband. It took more needles in my belly every day of my pregnancy to keep my baby alive. It took money. Ohmygod so much money. And tears. More tears than any one person should ever cry in a lifetime.

So don’t use me as a reason someone shouldn’t drink the water.

I hate to be Debbie Downer and ruin everyone’s joke, but I take it personally.  People are too quick to forget how much I struggled.  They think that just because I have my baby now that I’ve forgotten too. But my struggle is still a part of me. A big part of who I am now and what kind of mother I am and plan to be. I think it will always be a part of me in that way.

So yeah. Another girl is pregnant at work. And she wasn’t even trying. As a matter of fact she had just made an appointment to get her tubes tied because she was done having kids. Must’ve been that water she drank!

Funny thing though, aside from the don’t drink the water jokes, I wasn’t upset when she told me. For the first time in I don’t know how long I wasn’t sad to hear that someone else was pregnant. I was a little jealous,  because I very much miss being pregnant.  But I wasn’t sad. And that’s a big deal.

So here I go again, watching someone else walk around pregnant for 9 long months.  But this time I get to go home to my baby’s sweet smiling face everyday 🙂


{On a related note….I had ANOTHER period! That’s one in March and one in April!  Crazy! Since I decided against birth control I told hubby we may need to be a little more careful lol!}


3 Month Pictures

As promised, here they are!

M had his 3 month pictures done on Saturday. I was SO excited for them and SO nervous at the same time. Trying to photograph a 3 month old is much different than photographing a sleeping newborn. In the end, M did exactly what I thought he would do….he got cranky and had a meltdown. So we really didn’t get a whole lot of shots this go around. I was disappointed because my photographer has ENDLESS backgrounds and props and setups, and we didn’t use hardly ANYTHING! She did great, and caught some smiles that I wasn’t even aware he had given since he was being Mr. Crankypants the entire time. She told me 3 months is the most difficult because they can’t really do anything and they get mad when you try to make them lol. But she promised we’d make up for it at our 6 month session and said he’d have way more fun too because he’ll be able to sit up instead of us trying to prop him up on random objects.

So here are the few shots that we did get. Don’t get me wrong, what we got was great! But I’m already making big plans for his 6 month shoot 🙂 Can’t wait for July!’







Once he started with the meltdown, I got him calmed down and asleep enough to catch a shot of him snoozing in her Easter setup. About 5 seconds after this was taken he lost it lol…




She snuck most of the shots for this collage while I was holding him and rocking him to sleep. It was obvious he wasn’t going to cooperate today so she made this collage for me as well! 🙂




And finally, here’s a comparison photo to show just how much he has grown since his newborn photos….CRAZY!!!



Newborn Pictures

Mason had his 3 month photo shoot yesterday, and it occurred to me that I never posted his newborn pics!

The lady that does his pictures has a “Grow With Me” package that we bought…he gets Newborn, 3 Months, 6 Months, 9 Months, and 1st Birthday pics for a very reasonable price. And she only does NB-1st birthday photography, so she’s great with babies. I call her the baby whisperer! 🙂

Admittedly, she wasn’t my first choice…there were other photographers in the area that do a lot more fancy editing and who carry a much MUCH bigger price tag. But I’m so happy I went with her because she is SO great with my son! She has the patience of a saint and does whatever she can to get the shot we want. Love her to pieces and would recommend her to anyone I know!

So here are some of M’s newborn photos, taken when he was exactly 1 week old. It makes me miss my tiny little newborn so much! As soon as she gets his 3 month session up I’ll post those!























Baby Nugget – 3 Months

My sweet sweet boy, you are THREE MONTHS OLD!


What are your stats and what does the doctor say?

At your two month checkup you were 12lbs 2oz and 22 3/4in long. The other day I weighed you on the bathroom scale (me getting on, then getting on while holding you) and it says you are about 13.5lbs! You are a growing boy! Dr. Chris said everything looked good at your checkup and you were so brave when you got your shots!

What are you eating?

You have moved from Enfamil Newborn to Enfamil Infant. You tolerate it very well and don’t seem to be having any issues. You eat about 5.5oz every 3 to 4 hours during the days and every 4 to 6 hours at night. You are a hungry boy and love to eat!

When do you eat and sleep?

Like I said before, you eat about every 3 to 4 hours during the day and every 4 to 6 hours at night (sometimes less, depending on the night).  You tend to take little catnaps during the day now, usually about and hour to two hours after you eat, and usually for no longer than 30 minutes, 45 minutes tops.  Sometimes you will take a long afternoon nap for an hour and half or more, but that doesn’t happen too often.  You usually go down for the night between 8 and 9pm, get up around 2:30 or 3am to eat, then go back down until around 8:30am.

What do your routines look like?

Eat, Play, Sleep! We aren’t purposefully doing the “Eat Play Sleep” routine, you just kinda feel into it on your own. After getting up in the morning you take your morning bottle, then we play some. Sometimes we play on the couch, sometimes we try Tummy Time (although you still hate it). Or you lay in your crib and watch your mobile go around, you love that thing! You also like to play on your playmat and bat at the toys now. You’ll play on it for 30 to 45 minutes sometimes! About an hour and a half or so after you eat you’re ready for a nap, albeit a short one. Depending on how long you nap, you wake up and play more or are ready to eat. We follow this routine until bedtime, when you get your bedtime lotion, swaddle, and nighttime bottle. Then we rock in your nursery and push the “Beethoven” button on your mobile — this is your sleepy time music. Once you’re asleep you go down in your Rock N Play for the night. Sometimes you wake up and mommy puts you in bed with her until you’re ready to eat again.


What size clothes and diapers are you wearing?

You are wearing 0-3 months and 3 months clothes and size 2 diapers! Some of your clothes are getting just a little bit snug though!

What are some things you love?

You love to take a bath. You still love your bouncy chair, but lately you’d rather play on your playmat. You love the jungle mobile in your crib. You love to ride in the car! You love to suck on your hands…they are always in your mouth! You have a SoundSpa that plays white noise type sounds and projects scenes onto the ceiling above you…we usually have it on an underwater fish scene and whenever you wake up you look up and just laugh and smile at those fish! You love them!

What are some things you don’t love?

You still don’t like waiting for your bottle….Sometimes that warmer is just not fast enough! You really do not like tummy time!

What can you do?

You’re still holding your head up like a big boy! Getting stronger everyday!  You smile, laugh, coo, and talk all the time now! You are trying to roll over from your back to your front but you get stuck about halfway through. You’re getting closer everyday though! (I have a video to post but I can’t figure out how to get it on here!) You can bat at the toys on your playmat and hold on to them.

Who has visited and watched you?

Your family drops by a lot to see you. When mommy and daddy are both at work on Friday’s Aunt S, Nana, or Grandma keeps you. You are doing really well with your sitters, although they tell mommy that you won’t sleep unless you’re being held. (Funny since you’re napping all alone while mommy writes this blog post haha). Mommy finally took you to meet the girls at work because they kept asking about you. They all adored you and said you were a beautiful baby!

What are some of your nicknames?

We call you “Guy” a lot (like ‘Hey Guy, what’s wrong?’). Mommy calls you Piglet while you eat because you’re so eager and a little messy! Aunt S calls you Monkey Butt.

What are we looking forward to in the next month?

Before you turn 4 months, you’ll celebrate your first Easter and you first family dinner with the extended family. You’ll have your 3 month pictures taken next weekend (mommy has to find you something to wear!). You’ll meet some of mommy’s friend’s babies: baby boy J, who was born 3 days after you, and you’ll meet baby girl B who is just 3 weeks old now! Between them and the G girls, you’ll have lots of playdates in  your future! 🙂  We’ll also work on tummy time some more this month…got to get those arms and neck muscles working!