Baby Nugget – 4 Months

My precious baby boy, you turned 4 MONTHS OLD on May 2nd!


My, how time has flown! You had a big month last month! You had your very first playdate with Mommy’s friend A and Baby J, you celebrated your first Easter and went to your first family dinner, you went to your first wedding (and you were SO good, you didn’t make a peep the whole time!), you ate off a spoon for the first time (well, sorta), you celebrated your daddy’s birthday, and you mastered rolling over!

Baby's first Easter! Look at all that loot!

Baby’s first Easter! Look at all that loot!

First Spoonful!

First Spoonful!

Where's my bottle??

Where’s my bottle??

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

(Daddy let him help blow out the candles…The angle of the picture makes it look like he’s super close to that candle but I promise he was a safe distance away!)

What are your stats and what does the doctor say?

You haven’t had your 4 month checkup yet, you go for that in another 1 1/2 weeks. But unofficially you are about 15.5 lbs! I haven’t measured you yet but I can tell you are getting longer!

What are you eating?

You are still eating Enfamil Infant and you tolerate it well (although you do spit up often…but you are a happy spitter and it’s not enough to be alarmed by). You take about 6oz every 3-4 hours, but you usually go closer to 4 hours between feedings. We tried eating cereal with a spoon for the first time last week! You weren’t too crazy about it. We plan to try again soon though!

When do you eat and sleep?

You eat every 3-4 hours during the day and take a couple of short catnaps throughout the day. Usually about an hour and a half to two hours after you eat you’re ready for a nap. In the afternoon you usually take one longer nap that can last anywhere from 1 to 2 hours. The other day you slept for 3 hours while Aunt S was babysitting! You never nap that long for me! You usually go down for the night at around 8:00, sometimes a little earlier, sometimes later. I am happy to report that you, my dear boy, are finally SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT! So anywhere between 5 and 7 am you wake up for your morning bottle then its every 3-4 hours from there.

What do your routines look like?

Eat, Play, Sleep! Depending on what time you get up for your morning bottle (if it’s super early, we sometimes go back to bed for another hour or two) you play for a while until you wear yourself out and then go down for a nap. Mommy and Daddy play with you a lot, but sometimes you like hanging out on your playmat, in your Sit Me Up Seat, or in your crib with your toys. When you’re up from your nap you’re usually ready to eat again. We follow this routine throughout the day. Sometimes we go to town to run errands, sometimes you sit in the kitchen in your bouncer and help Mommy cook dinner. When you start winding down in the evening we start your bedtime routine…diaper change, lotion, bedtime bottle, and we rock. We’re putting you in the bassinet again now that you are more mobile and are practically trying to climb out of the Rock N Play at night! You like to sleep on your side, and I’m hoping it’ll get you ready to transition to the crib soon. You are sleeping all the way through the night now without any middle of the night feedings (this just started so crossing our fingers it lasts!) but sometimes you get a little restless halfway through the night and mommy lets you sleep the rest of the night with her. Then we wake up in the morning and start all over again!

What size clothes and diapers are you wearing?

You can still wear some 3 month clothes, but 3-6 months are fitting you great. Some 6 month outifits fit you as well. I’ve told everyone not to buy anymore 3 months…only 3-6 months and up because you are growing fast! It seems I add more and more to the “Doesn’t Fit” pile everyday! You are still in size 2 diapers (Luvs) but the next box we will probably move up to 3’s.

What are some things you love?

You still love playing in the bath. You have a blast on your playmat everyday! You like sitting up like a big boy so you can see what’s going on. You like to watch TV, even though Mommy tries not to let you lol! You LOVE your changing table! I don’t know what it is about that thing, but it’s a party everytime you’re on it! Oh, and you found your feet and you love to grab them and chew them! You are even coming around to Tummy Time since Daddy brought you home a new tummy time pillow! Yay!

Tummy Time!

Tummy Time!

What are some things you don’t love?

You don’t like waiting for anything that you want, especially your bottle. You don’t like being held like a baby unless you’re sleepy or don’t feel good. You’re not crazy about eating off a spoon yet. You’re still not crazy about tummy time, although it’s getting better!

What can you do?

You can roll from back to front like a pro! You can reach and grab your toys. You try really hard to pull yourself up to a sitting position when you’re propped up on your boppy. You can “talk” like crazy and give us an earful every day! You can hold your binky and put it in and out of your mouth all by yourself! You try really hard to hold your bottle by yourself but it’s still just a little too heavy 🙂

I love my playmat!

I love my playmat!

Who has visited and watched you?

Aunt S and grandma take turns keeping you on Fridays when we’re both at work. You got to see lots of family on Easter and the next weekend was your papa’s birthday so you got to see all your great uncles and some of mommy’s cousins and of course your great grandma! You got to meet a lot of people at the wedding we went to, too!

What are we looking forward to in the next month?

Before you turn 5 months you’ll have you next checkup with Dr. Chris and your next set of shots. You’ll go to your cousin’s 1st birthday party. You’ll celebrate Memorial Day with the family, and if the pool is ready you may even have your first swim! And of course you’ll celebrate your first Mother’s Day with your mommy 🙂

Baby Nugget – 3 Months

My sweet sweet boy, you are THREE MONTHS OLD!


What are your stats and what does the doctor say?

At your two month checkup you were 12lbs 2oz and 22 3/4in long. The other day I weighed you on the bathroom scale (me getting on, then getting on while holding you) and it says you are about 13.5lbs! You are a growing boy! Dr. Chris said everything looked good at your checkup and you were so brave when you got your shots!

What are you eating?

You have moved from Enfamil Newborn to Enfamil Infant. You tolerate it very well and don’t seem to be having any issues. You eat about 5.5oz every 3 to 4 hours during the days and every 4 to 6 hours at night. You are a hungry boy and love to eat!

When do you eat and sleep?

Like I said before, you eat about every 3 to 4 hours during the day and every 4 to 6 hours at night (sometimes less, depending on the night).  You tend to take little catnaps during the day now, usually about and hour to two hours after you eat, and usually for no longer than 30 minutes, 45 minutes tops.  Sometimes you will take a long afternoon nap for an hour and half or more, but that doesn’t happen too often.  You usually go down for the night between 8 and 9pm, get up around 2:30 or 3am to eat, then go back down until around 8:30am.

What do your routines look like?

Eat, Play, Sleep! We aren’t purposefully doing the “Eat Play Sleep” routine, you just kinda feel into it on your own. After getting up in the morning you take your morning bottle, then we play some. Sometimes we play on the couch, sometimes we try Tummy Time (although you still hate it). Or you lay in your crib and watch your mobile go around, you love that thing! You also like to play on your playmat and bat at the toys now. You’ll play on it for 30 to 45 minutes sometimes! About an hour and a half or so after you eat you’re ready for a nap, albeit a short one. Depending on how long you nap, you wake up and play more or are ready to eat. We follow this routine until bedtime, when you get your bedtime lotion, swaddle, and nighttime bottle. Then we rock in your nursery and push the “Beethoven” button on your mobile — this is your sleepy time music. Once you’re asleep you go down in your Rock N Play for the night. Sometimes you wake up and mommy puts you in bed with her until you’re ready to eat again.


What size clothes and diapers are you wearing?

You are wearing 0-3 months and 3 months clothes and size 2 diapers! Some of your clothes are getting just a little bit snug though!

What are some things you love?

You love to take a bath. You still love your bouncy chair, but lately you’d rather play on your playmat. You love the jungle mobile in your crib. You love to ride in the car! You love to suck on your hands…they are always in your mouth! You have a SoundSpa that plays white noise type sounds and projects scenes onto the ceiling above you…we usually have it on an underwater fish scene and whenever you wake up you look up and just laugh and smile at those fish! You love them!

What are some things you don’t love?

You still don’t like waiting for your bottle….Sometimes that warmer is just not fast enough! You really do not like tummy time!

What can you do?

You’re still holding your head up like a big boy! Getting stronger everyday!  You smile, laugh, coo, and talk all the time now! You are trying to roll over from your back to your front but you get stuck about halfway through. You’re getting closer everyday though! (I have a video to post but I can’t figure out how to get it on here!) You can bat at the toys on your playmat and hold on to them.

Who has visited and watched you?

Your family drops by a lot to see you. When mommy and daddy are both at work on Friday’s Aunt S, Nana, or Grandma keeps you. You are doing really well with your sitters, although they tell mommy that you won’t sleep unless you’re being held. (Funny since you’re napping all alone while mommy writes this blog post haha). Mommy finally took you to meet the girls at work because they kept asking about you. They all adored you and said you were a beautiful baby!

What are some of your nicknames?

We call you “Guy” a lot (like ‘Hey Guy, what’s wrong?’). Mommy calls you Piglet while you eat because you’re so eager and a little messy! Aunt S calls you Monkey Butt.

What are we looking forward to in the next month?

Before you turn 4 months, you’ll celebrate your first Easter and you first family dinner with the extended family. You’ll have your 3 month pictures taken next weekend (mommy has to find you something to wear!). You’ll meet some of mommy’s friend’s babies: baby boy J, who was born 3 days after you, and you’ll meet baby girl B who is just 3 weeks old now! Between them and the G girls, you’ll have lots of playdates in  your future! 🙂  We’ll also work on tummy time some more this month…got to get those arms and neck muscles working!

Working Momma

So this week was my first week back to work, and boy was it hard!!!

My first day back was ok. I teared up a lot on the drive to work but managed to hold it together. I will venture to say it was even nice to have a reason to get up and get dressed, fix my hair and makeup, socialize with people outside of my household. It was definitely weird being back. After 14 weeks, part of me felt like I never left and part of me felt like they never missed me, although several people told me otherwise.

At lunchtime I called Hubby to see how he and M were doing. They had had a rough night the night before and hubs was a little tired. He also told me after getting home that night that M had a fit of epic proportions that afternoon for no apparent reason and nothing would console him, not even a bottle. I’m choosing to believe that he simply missed his mommy and wanted to know where she was all damn day long.

The hard part came when I got home. I just wanted to hold him and not put him down. But by the time I get home at night, we have approximately 3 hours until M’s bedtime. And in that amount of time we have to get dinner ready, eat, get M ready for his bedtime routine, get my shower and my work things together for the next day… There’s just not enough time. No time to play and smile and giggle. It just broke my heart.

My second day was harder than the first. I had a meeting at lunch so I didn’t get to call and check in on the boys. I was being prepped for a new position that I was being put in at work. It was a position that I have wanted for a very long time, and am pretty sure when it came open last year the only reason it wasn’t given to me (as promised a few months before) was because I was pregnant. They would never admit it, of course, but I’m pretty positive that’s the reasoning. Well, the surprise was on them, because the girl the DID give the job to told them she was pregnant a few weeks later! She went on maternity leave the same time as me and decided not to come back and stay home full time. (Lots of jealousy here.)

So this week I’ve been in my new office learning about my new job. It’s something I already know how to do, because I filled in previously for a different girl while she was on maternity leave as well (did I mention how many people got pregnant at my job while I was TTC?? It was horrible!). But there is a LOT more work to it than I thought, things I wasn’t expected to know or do while I was just filling in. And while its something I can definitely do and be good at and enjoy, its just hard to concentrate on everything when you wish you were home snuggling your baby.

Not to mention, I’m only working 4 days a week now instead of 5. And this job definitely takes 5 days a week to get done every week. So that worried me.

I came home from my second day of work and held my baby and just cried. My husband looked worn out. He was having a rough time being home full time with M. He had one more night and day with him by himself and then he had to go back to work on Thursday working 12 hour shifts. He was exhausted. And he said something to me that I never thought I’d hear my husband say.

He suggested that maybe I should only work part time. No more than 3 days a week. This would mean giving up my insurance and benefits (which my job pays 100% of) and being added onto Hubby’s insurance which would cost us more money. When we got pregnant and I brought up me possibly only working 4 days a week he was totally against that even, saying that we couldn’t afford it. Once the baby was here he came around because it meant we didn’t have to pay for child care and only had one day a week to worry about a sitter. When it was closer to time to go back to work, I begged to stay home (which I really don’t thing we can afford) or work part time, and again he said we couldn’t afford it. But that was before he had to spend 3 days and nights taking care of M all by himself so that I could sleep and go to work.

Now he thinks me being home more is a WONDERFUL idea! 🙂

He admitted that he wasn’t sure he could do it every single week and I don’t blame him. He’s not a mommy. And M is a lot of hard work. And taking care of him for 3 days straight and then going to work 12 hour days for 4 days straight would get old very quickly. I don’t think he would be a very good daddy or husband after a while.

So he suggested I talk to work about cutting back to 3 days a week. It would be tight, but we budgeted and as long as we stay on top of things, we’ll be just fine.

PLUS, my daddy stopped by this week, knowing I want to stay home more and wanting to help however he could. So he offered to pay off my student loans, which is one of my big debts. There were a lot of tears on both parts. He said it was something he couldn’t do while I was in school but he’s in a position to do now and he wanted to pay for my school.

Things just seemed to fall together.

Long story short, I’d have to give up the position I just got (because there is NO way I could do the job part time. NO. WAY.) and go back to the floor, which I don’t love. But, I would get another extra day home with my baby. And in the long run that just seems more important to me.

So now I am officially a working momma who only work PART TIME. 😀

Starting Monday I work Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  I’ve given up my benefits and the job position I’ve wanted for a couple of years. But now I get to be home more with my baby who grows every day. My husband and I get a day where we’re actually off work together and can spend that time as a family.

I still wish I could stay home full time, but I’ve accepted that will never happen. So I’m going to gloat and enjoy the fact that 3 days a week isn’t so much, and that I’ll be home the majority of every week with my baby. 🙂

Here’s a pic of my little monkey butt from our day home together on Thursday of this week. Can’t wait for more days together with this sweet guy!!!


2 Month Checkup

M had his 2 month checkup yesterday and he is a growing boy!

He weighed in at 12lbs 2oz and was 22 and 3/4 inches long. 60th percentile for weight and 40th percentile for height.  Pretty close to average and pretty close to perfect! 😉

He got his first set of shots and I’m not sure who hated it more, me or him. There was a lot of screaming and I’m pretty sure those were his first official real tears that welled up in his eyes. It was so sad! We gave him tylenol when we got home and he never ran fever. He was a little fussy and wanted to snuggle with mommy so that’s what we did the rest of the day. He slept a little more than usual But that was to be expected. He woke up this morning all smiles and in a great mood 🙂

Waiting on our shots :(

Waiting on our shots 😦

Just another neat thing I wanted to share… My aunt stayed with M for a few hours today while Hubby and I went out for lunch and grocery shopping for the week (had to load up since we are both back to work next week). I called her while we were at Walmart to check in and she answered the phone on speaker. She said as soon as M heard my voice he would just smile and coo and laugh! Everytime I talked he grinned a little more she said. How awesome is that??! Made my heart swell to know my baby loves his mommy! 🙂

Now to enjoy my last couple days of maternity leave before I become a working mom on Monday.  😦

The (Unfinished) Nursery

So I figured I’d put up a few pictures of the nursery, even though it’s nowhere near finished yet.  For the most part we’ve got most of what we need already, I just really slacked off and didn’t get any of the decorating done that I wanted.  There’s pretty much NOTHING on the walls yet.  And I don’t expect it to get done before he’s here, so it is what it is right now!  I don’t think he’s going to mind one bit either way. 😉


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So that’s it!  I had a vision in my head of what I wanted to do very early on.  I just haven’t gotten around to finishing that vision lol.  I’m happy with my color scheme though and I plan to put his name above his crib once he’s here (still between Mason and Chace…we’ll know once we meet him!).

Another thing I wanted to show off is the high chair that my uncle made for the baby!  He gave it to us on Christmas and I am in love with it!  Not only is it one of a kind, but it is adorable and will be able to be passed down and used for many years.  I love special gifts like this so much!


39 Weeks 2 Days

And still no baby!  I’m pretty sure he has no plans of leaving anytime soon.  Stubborn little guy.

I have been CRAZY miserable this last week.  I’m so uncomfortable and I can’t sleep at night at all anymore.  My entire pelvic region hurts like crazy.  I don’t know how I can’t be dilated already.  There is so much pressure and achiness down there when I stand up I can barely walk sometimes.  It literally feels like my vagina is breaking in half.  Sorry for the TMI, but that’s the only way I know how to describe it.  I also just got over a sinus infection, which made me feel like death.  Dr. L sent me in a zpak and I finally started to feel better.  I’m not sure there’s much worse than being pregnant and sick at the same time.

My last appointment was on Monday and I ended up seeing a different doctor than expected, but I liked him a lot so that’s ok.  He said my cervix was thinning (Hubby swears he said 50% but I don’t recall hearing him say that) but I was still completely closed.  Sealed up tight.  He gave me the rundown on what to watch for as far as labor goes and where to go/who to call, and told me to see Dr. L again on Monday the 30th.  I talked to him a little about my concerns of coming off the lovenox, and he said while there is risk to coming off, there is also risk to not coming off.  He said the most important thing was to monitor fetal movement and if it slows down don’t hesitate to call.  He told me a good rule of thumb is count kicks/rolls/movements for 1 hour after a meal (when baby should be most active) and I should count at least 5 in an hour.  If any less he said call and not to feel silly about it.  So I’ve been pretty obsessed with counting kicks, and so far so good.  I always count 5 within 15 minutes or so, so I take that as a good sign.  That doesn’t help me feel any less paranoid though.  And I still poke and prod on him a lot if I don’t feel him for a while.

The closer I get to labor the more nervous I get.  If I let myself thing about it too much I really start to freak out.  I’m scared, admittedly.  Not just of the birth itself, but of all the things that can still go wrong.  I know I shouldn’t think that way but it’s difficult not to.  I made it SO far and I can’t help but still expect something bad to happen.  Infertility does this to you I guess.  I’m trying to think positively though and not dwell.  I have a good doctor and I trust that I’ll have good people taking care of me.


Week 38:

Baby is about 18.9 to 20.9 inches long and weighs about 6.2 to 9.2 pounds. His head is now about the same circumference as his abdomen. He may have about an inch or so of hair already. He’s slowly shedding that white goo on his skin (called vernix caseosa) but you might see some of it at birth.

Week 39:

Baby keeps growing, despite being so crowded in there. He probably weighs around 6.2 to 9.2 pounds and measures about 18.9 to 20.9 inches. He’s probably able to flex his limbs now.  His brain is still rapidly developing — he’s getting smarter by the week! His nails may extend past his fingertips.

How far along? 39 weeks (and 2 days)…and still waiting!

Total weight gain: As of this morning +14lbs

Maternity clothes? Just yoga pants/pajamas/big tshirts mostly. I don’t have a reason to get up and get ready most days since I’m on bed rest. But if I do go out it’s my maternity leggings and a long tunic top.

 Stretch marks?  No new ones. But my old ones are stretching out a bit.

Sleep:  What sleep?! Seriously. I cannot sleep at night anymore. I maybe get 2-3 hours then I’m wide awake because I’m so uncomfortable. I usually fall back asleep around 7am and sleep until 10 or 11. My sleep schedule is ridiculous right now.

Best moment this week: Christmas was fun, even if I was miserable and a little cranky all day.

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach. Sleeping period. Being able to walk out of the room without losing my breath. SO MANY THINGS! lol..

Movement:  Yep.  Sometimes I feel like it’s slowing down a bit but I’ve been keeping a close eye on him.

Food cravings:  Anything sweet. And carbs.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular but I have had a couple of nausea spells the last weeks or so.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  Contractions. Pelvic pressure/pain. Diarrhea (still).

Symptoms: Have I mentioned hemorrhoids yet?  Yeah, those are a blast.  Frequent urination.  Sciatic nerve pain. Heartburn and indigestion.  Shortness of breath.  Braxton Hicks/actual contractions.

Belly Button in or out?  In, but it looks weird.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit when I first put them on. After a few hours they get tight.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy!  And tired.  And anxious.

Looking forward to:  Meeting this little guy!

Next appointment: Monday December 30th.


Raising a Boy

Since I found out I was pregnant and decided to share it with others, the first thing people asked was whether it was a girl or boy, or which I wanted, a girl or a boy.  I always answered that I didn’t care what it was, as long as he or she was healthy.  And I truly meant it.  People say it all the time, but I think most have some idea in their head of what they wish their baby will be…especially if it’s not your first.  But for someone like me (and many of you) who’s struggled so hard to get to this point, there’s no way I could have ever been disappointed in the sex of this baby.

With that said, I feel like most women hope to have a girl.  Maybe it’s because as girls ourselves, we feel like we’d be more comfortable raising a girl.  We’ll know what to do with a girl.  We know all about shoes and dresses and Barbies and hairbows.  It’s only natural for a girl to want another girl.  I’ve had people I know flat out admit that they absolutely wanted a girl.  I’ve seen the disappointment in people that I know when I announced I was having a boy, my own mother included.  A girl that I work with actually said to me that another co-worker’s baby was going to be getting all of her money because there was just too much cute stuff for girls and nothing cute for boys (this co-worker, ironically really really wanted a boy, believe it or not).  I’ve watched people cock their head to the side and say, “Aww,” in a sympathetic way when I tell them it’s a boy, I guess because they assume that as a woman, I wanted to have a girl.

Newsflash.  As a woman, I wanted to have a baby.

And I am SO excited to be having a son.  I am so excited to have that special bond that boys only have with their mom.  To be the most important woman in his life for the next how ever many years.

With all that being said, there are still things that make me nervous about raising a boy.  A friend was over the other day with her little girl, who is in kindergarten.  Little L whispered to me that she had a secret, and then proceeded to tell me that she liked a boy in her class because “he’s handsome.”  My friend was shocked, since this was the first she’d heard of the handsome little boy.  Then Little L started talking about kissing and getting married.  My friend almost had a heart attack.  The kid is five, and it’s all innocent, but when you have an adolescence like my friend did (haha) you can’t help but worry when your daughter starts talking about crushes and boys and kissing, no matter how old she is.  I made a joke that she was going to have her hands full since she seems to be just like her momma.  My friend said how lucky I am to be having a boy.  And while I do think the teenage years might be a little easier with a boy, I admitted that I was still a little nervous about raising a boy.  “Because you don’t know what to do with a boy?”  is what my friend assumed, who has admitted before that she was SO glad she had a girl because she wouldn’t know what to do with a boy.  Here we go back to the girls feel more comfortable with girls.  That’s not what it is though.

I’m nervous because of the kind of man I want to raise my boy into.

For lack of a more graceful way of saying it, my exact words to my friend were, “I don’t want him to grow up to be a douchebag.”

But seriously.  We all know those guys.  Those boys we grew up with.  The boys who broke our hearts.  The boys we thought we could change.  I don’t want mine to be one of those.  And I have NO idea how to make sure he doesn’t turn into one.

I want him to be a boy, yes.  But I want him to be sweet and polite as well.

I want him to open doors for girls.  For women.  For elderly people who may need a little extra help.

I don’t want to be too strict, but I want him to be a gentleman and say “yes, ma’am” when it’s called for.

I want him to never feel like he’s better than anyone else because of the house he lives in or the clothes he wears or the car he drives.

I want him to be nice to girls.  All the girls.  Even the girls he may not find attractive.  I don’t want him to lead anyone on, but I still want him to be nice to them and respect them.  Because all women are beautiful in their own right, and I want him to be the kind of man who recognizes that.

I know I can’t keep ugly words from ever coming out of his mouth, but I want him to be the kind of guy who takes the high road.  Who stands up for others who may not be able to stand up for themselves.  Who stands up for himself and his beliefs without hurting others.

There are so many other things that I can’t even put into words.  I’ve been way too weepy lately to even get through this whole post.  But the short and sweet of it is that raising a boy scares me to death, but not for the reasons that people might think. (I’m sure raising a girl would be just as scary for me as well, for similar reasons)

It may seem like I’m putting a lot of expectations on this little guy who’s not even here yet, but really it’s all on me.  It’s up to me to instill these things in him, starting right from the beginning.

I’m scared, yes.

But this is what we’ve all been waiting for, right? 🙂

38 Weeks

And still closed for business.

Yep, as of my appointment yesterday, my cervix is still locked up tight.  This kid has no plans of going anywhere anytime soon!

I guess I’m ok with that.  We still technically have 2 more weeks for things to happen.  I was just SO sure he was going to get here much earlier than that.  And we were really hoping he would get here before the 1st of the year.  If he doesn’t, he doesn’t, and that’s ok with me.  Just goes to show, no matter what mom and dad have planned, with kids you just never know what’s going to happen!

Dr. L said we can still induce a couple days early (meaning the last week of December) but ONLY if I’m showing signs of progression…my cervix has got to be thinning and at least a little bit dilated.  He will not induce early if I’m still thick and closed.  Which is good, I guess.  But I do not like the idea of going to 41 weeks, which is the point where he WILL induce if something hasn’t happened yet.  After our checkup yesterday, my husband is convinced that he’s not going to be here until January.  Maybe, maybe not.  One thing is for sure, if something hasn’t happened by then, we WILL have a baby by January 8th (my 41 weeks mark).  A lot can happen between now and then, so we will just continue to wait and see.

Other than not being dilated at all, my checkup went well.  Dr. L is ready for me to come off of the lovenox, which is both scary and such a relief.  He doesn’t see a need at this point for me to continue on any other blood thinner as he will be monitoring me closely from here until the end.  Baby boy seems as healthy as can be.  He has been moving a LOT lately, and was such a wiggle worm while we were trying to hear his heartbeat on the Doppler yesterday!  Dr. L had to chase him around again before we finally heard it.  I didn’t freak out this time because I felt him moving the whole time.  Dr. L loved it, he said that when a baby is moving that much it can only mean that they are healthy and doing great.

My next appointment will be on Monday.  Dr. L is out that day so I’ll be seeing another doctor.  At first he told me he would have me see Dr. Douchebag (remember him?) and I was NOT excited one bit about it.  But, when I was checking out the girls said Dr. Douchebag was going to be out that day as well (oh, darn!) so I’m seeing Dr. R, who is the only woman doctor in the practice.  I’ve never seen her as a patient, but she has been a patient in the clinic that I work at and I’ve spoken with her on the phone and done her exams many times over the last couple years.  She’s a little bit of an airhead (for lack of a better word) but she’s nice and I’m good with seeing her for one visit.

So, that’s that.  We are still just waiting patiently until this boy decides he’s ready to come out! 🙂

37 Weeks 4 Days

I don’t have much else to do these days, so I thought I’d do my usual update.

Bed rest is going swimmingly.  I did a little bit of light housework today, and quite frankly wore myself out.  I don’t know if its the fact that I’m so far along and so close to giving birth, or that my body is just used to being at rest, but if I’m up for more than 5-10 minutes at a time I get EXHAUSTED!  So I loaded the dishwasher, wiped down some counters, and cleaned up the bathroom a little, all the while taking small breaks in between.

I did get out and go to Walmart a couple days ago.  I bought a few things for the hospital bag…mostly travel size toiletries: shampoo, soap, deodorant, toothpaste, lotion, things like that.  I put it all in a gallon size ziplock bag. I figure that’s easier than trying to remember to throw all that stuff in the hospital bag at the last minute.  I also bought a few things to make some homemade sugar scrubs for Christmas!  It was super cheap and easy.  And it gave me something to do.

No bump pic today, but I am including a gnarly picture of my belly button.  Because it’s weird looking.  I’ve been overweight pretty much my whole life to some degree or another, and carry most of my weight in my belly.  I never thought or expected my belly button to be an outie.  And while I’m not quite sure what it is at this point…I don’t think it’s still an innie.  It’s somewhere in between.  And it’s weird.  Just look!


Baby is the size of a winter melon!  {What in the world is a winter melon?!}  Yay!  Baby has reached full term.  He likely measures around 18.9 to 20.9 inches and weighs about 6.2 to 9.2 pounds.  He’s gaining about a 1/2 ounce each day.  During week 37, baby’s practicing some skills:  inhaling, exhaling, sucking, gripping, and blinking.  He’s also getting his first sticky poop, called meconium, ready for his first diaper!

How far along? 37 weeks (and 4 days)…Full term! it could be any time now!

Total weight gain: I think I’m still at about +16lbs. I had actually lost a pound at my last appointment, though I’m not sure how that’s possible!

Maternity clothes? Right now I’m mostly in yoga pants/pajama pants and big t-shirts. Since I’m on bed rest I have no reason to get dressed lol. I am glad I don’t have to squeeze into my scrubs anymore because they were getting very uncomfortable.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. But my old ones are stretching out a bit.

Sleep:  Horrible.  I’ve gotten myself in a bad habit of staying up late since being off work.  Mostly because I have such a hard time falling to sleep anyway.  And the last week EVERY SINGLE NIGHT I end up with a stuffy nose after laying down for bed! I’m fine all day after I blow my nose in the morning, but as soon as I go to bed, I’m up within a few hours not able to breath. Not sure what the deal is with that.

Best moment this week: One of my friends came over yesterday and painted my toes for me!

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach. Believe it or not I actually miss having something to do during the day. Not quite sure I miss my job, but I do miss having a purpose lol.

Movement:  Yep.  Some days not as much as others, but still quite a bit.  Sometimes I feel like he’s sticking his butt out when my stomach gets real tight and hard, but I kinda feel like those might be contractions?

Food cravings:   Sugar. I have been craving anything sugary this week. Seriously, all I want is candy. I’ve destroyed a box of ice cream sandwiches.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not much.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  Frequent contractions, but nothing that progresses or has a pattern. They aren’t really painful either.  Oh, and here’s an interesting one.  TMI TIME, FOLKS! I’m about to talk about poop, so feel free to skip if you like.  I’ve been having a LOT of diarrhea.  I know.  Gross.  But it is what it is.  It’s all the time, no matter what I eat, and it happens very shortly after I eat as well.  I don’t feel bad, so I know its not a bug.  I just need to go, and when I do that’s that.  I’ve done a little reading into the matter and apparently this could be your body’s way of preparing for labor.  Your body is essentially “cleaning itself out” and preparing for the process that is to come.  Additionally, as you get closer to labor, most of your abdominal and rectal muscle begin to relax to all the baby passage…this also contributes to frequent and loose stool. Learn something new every day, huh?  While we’re on the subject of poop (might as well at this point) is anyone else worried about pooping on the table?? It happens. I know it does. And I know its stupid to worry about. But seriously?? Didn’t I go through enough to get here without shitting in front of everyone in the room? Maybe my body will have “cleansed itself” enough by that point and there won’t be anything left.  We can only hope!

Symptoms:  Fatigue, bloat/gas, VERY frequent urination.  Sciatic nerve pain. Heartburn and indigestion.  Shortness of breath.  Dizziness/lightheadedness. Braxton Hicks/actual contractions.

Belly Button in or out?  In, but it looks weird. Seriously. See picture below.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit when I first put them on. After a few hours they get tight.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy! And tired.  And anxious.

Looking forward to:  Christmas. And meeting my baby boy. Which ever comes first!

Next appointment: Tuesday, December 17th.

Weird Belly Button!

Weird Belly Button!

37 Weeks

Exactly today.  It’s insane how far along I am.  Doesn’t seem possible!

Yesterday I finally had my follow up/weekly checkup with the doc.  My blood pressure was down to 144/83 and there wasn’t any protein in my urine, so Dr. L was very happy with that.  I also managed to lose a pound somehow, although I’m sure how since I feel like all I’ve done is eat and sleep all week.  Probably due to not retaining as much fluid with the blood pressure being down. But still….I’ve REALLY liked the food this week! Haha.. He wants me to continue the bp medication and “bed rest” because it seems to be working.  I did get permission to do “remedial” tasks around the house and short shopping trips if I’m climbing the walls, but he wants me to spend the majority of the day resting off my feet.  I’m thinking I’m going to at least need a lunch or dinner date with someone who isn’t my husband at some point…I love him and all but I think we’re starting to get on each other’s nerves lol!

The rest of my appointment was good as well, although I did get the biggest scare of my life!  Doc pulled out the Doppler and stuck it on my belly.  Usually I hear an instant thumping of that baby boy’s heart.  We’ve never had a hard time finding it, with the exception of my first OB visit, and we were just too early at that point.  This time, he moved the wand around to a couple of places, switched sides of my belly, pushed around a little bit….I’m sure this took all of 15-20 seconds, but as I laid there on that table NOT hearing my baby’s heartbeat at 37 freakin’ weeks, I panicked.  My face got hot, I felt tears well up, my body was pretty much paralyzed.  Then all of sudden, there it was. Thump thump thump.  “Is that him?!”  I asked, a little too franticly.  Dr. L assured me he was fine, and I admitted I had started to panic.  He said he was laying funny and “running” from him, so it just took him a few seconds to find the correct position.  I’m sure that’s normal, but I still didn’t like it.

I think I said before, I’m having more paranoia the closer I get to delivering.  I had a lot in the beginning of my pregnancy, and while it never went completely away, I got to a point where I felt mostly safe.  You’d think that in these last couple weeks it’d be smooth sailing without a care in the world besides when is this kid gonna get out of me.  But for me its like the total opposite.  I’m terrified of coming this far, of keeping him alive this long, only for something to happen at the last minute.  I’m obsessed with whether or not he’s moving enough, and I poke and prod on him way too much just for my own sanity.  I’m sad that my pregnancy is coming to an end, but at the same time I’ll be so happy and relieved when I can finally hold him and know that he is healthy and safe.

After my meltdown with the Doppler, Dr. L checked my cervix.  Nothing.  Not dilated.  Not soft.  Locked up tight.  I was a little surprised.  I was thinking this little guy might get here before Christmas.  Things can change fast, I know that.  And even if I was dilated, I could be at a 1 or 2 for weeks.  So none of this means anything.  Except he’s just not ready yet.  So we continue to wait.  Dr. L did go over some things with me about labor, and said if I felt like I was in labor, to not ask questions and go to L&D to get checked.  I had a few questions as far as what to look for…he assured me I’d know.  So that’s that.  We just wait, and I go back next Tuesday for my 38 week checkup.

In other news, I’ve got baby boy’s newborn photos all set up…sort of.  I spoke with the photographer I decided on and all I have to do is get in touch with her a day or two after he is born.  She likes to do newborn shoots 5-10 days after they are born.  I LOVE her work.  And she is fairly cheap, considering how talented she is.  She only photographs newborn through 1st birthday, so she does a great job working with babies since that is all she does. I’m pretty excited for his pictures and will definitely share some here when they are done!

So…so far all is well.  We are just playing the waiting game.  Bed rest is a bummer,  but it could be worse.  I plan on making a quick shopping trip tomorrow for some things I need for my hospital bag while hubby is at work.  I need out of this house, and Dr. L did ok me for a short trip to the store 😉 .  So I’ll leave you with my 36 weeks 6 days bump pic from yesterday.  It’s the first time I’d been dressed and fixed my hair and makeup in 7 days.  the first time I’d put pants on 3 days.  Don’t judge me.  LOL.

36 weeks 6 days

36 weeks 6 days