39 Weeks 2 Days

And still no baby!  I’m pretty sure he has no plans of leaving anytime soon.  Stubborn little guy.

I have been CRAZY miserable this last week.  I’m so uncomfortable and I can’t sleep at night at all anymore.  My entire pelvic region hurts like crazy.  I don’t know how I can’t be dilated already.  There is so much pressure and achiness down there when I stand up I can barely walk sometimes.  It literally feels like my vagina is breaking in half.  Sorry for the TMI, but that’s the only way I know how to describe it.  I also just got over a sinus infection, which made me feel like death.  Dr. L sent me in a zpak and I finally started to feel better.  I’m not sure there’s much worse than being pregnant and sick at the same time.

My last appointment was on Monday and I ended up seeing a different doctor than expected, but I liked him a lot so that’s ok.  He said my cervix was thinning (Hubby swears he said 50% but I don’t recall hearing him say that) but I was still completely closed.  Sealed up tight.  He gave me the rundown on what to watch for as far as labor goes and where to go/who to call, and told me to see Dr. L again on Monday the 30th.  I talked to him a little about my concerns of coming off the lovenox, and he said while there is risk to coming off, there is also risk to not coming off.  He said the most important thing was to monitor fetal movement and if it slows down don’t hesitate to call.  He told me a good rule of thumb is count kicks/rolls/movements for 1 hour after a meal (when baby should be most active) and I should count at least 5 in an hour.  If any less he said call and not to feel silly about it.  So I’ve been pretty obsessed with counting kicks, and so far so good.  I always count 5 within 15 minutes or so, so I take that as a good sign.  That doesn’t help me feel any less paranoid though.  And I still poke and prod on him a lot if I don’t feel him for a while.

The closer I get to labor the more nervous I get.  If I let myself thing about it too much I really start to freak out.  I’m scared, admittedly.  Not just of the birth itself, but of all the things that can still go wrong.  I know I shouldn’t think that way but it’s difficult not to.  I made it SO far and I can’t help but still expect something bad to happen.  Infertility does this to you I guess.  I’m trying to think positively though and not dwell.  I have a good doctor and I trust that I’ll have good people taking care of me.

 

Week 38:

Baby is about 18.9 to 20.9 inches long and weighs about 6.2 to 9.2 pounds. His head is now about the same circumference as his abdomen. He may have about an inch or so of hair already. He’s slowly shedding that white goo on his skin (called vernix caseosa) but you might see some of it at birth.

Week 39:

Baby keeps growing, despite being so crowded in there. He probably weighs around 6.2 to 9.2 pounds and measures about 18.9 to 20.9 inches. He’s probably able to flex his limbs now.  His brain is still rapidly developing — he’s getting smarter by the week! His nails may extend past his fingertips.

How far along? 39 weeks (and 2 days)…and still waiting!

Total weight gain: As of this morning +14lbs

Maternity clothes? Just yoga pants/pajamas/big tshirts mostly. I don’t have a reason to get up and get ready most days since I’m on bed rest. But if I do go out it’s my maternity leggings and a long tunic top.

 Stretch marks?  No new ones. But my old ones are stretching out a bit.

Sleep:  What sleep?! Seriously. I cannot sleep at night anymore. I maybe get 2-3 hours then I’m wide awake because I’m so uncomfortable. I usually fall back asleep around 7am and sleep until 10 or 11. My sleep schedule is ridiculous right now.

Best moment this week: Christmas was fun, even if I was miserable and a little cranky all day.

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach. Sleeping period. Being able to walk out of the room without losing my breath. SO MANY THINGS! lol..

Movement:  Yep.  Sometimes I feel like it’s slowing down a bit but I’ve been keeping a close eye on him.

Food cravings:  Anything sweet. And carbs.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular but I have had a couple of nausea spells the last weeks or so.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  Contractions. Pelvic pressure/pain. Diarrhea (still).

Symptoms: Have I mentioned hemorrhoids yet?  Yeah, those are a blast.  Frequent urination.  Sciatic nerve pain. Heartburn and indigestion.  Shortness of breath.  Braxton Hicks/actual contractions.

Belly Button in or out?  In, but it looks weird.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit when I first put them on. After a few hours they get tight.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy!  And tired.  And anxious.

Looking forward to:  Meeting this little guy!

Next appointment: Monday December 30th.

 

37 Weeks 4 Days

I don’t have much else to do these days, so I thought I’d do my usual update.

Bed rest is going swimmingly.  I did a little bit of light housework today, and quite frankly wore myself out.  I don’t know if its the fact that I’m so far along and so close to giving birth, or that my body is just used to being at rest, but if I’m up for more than 5-10 minutes at a time I get EXHAUSTED!  So I loaded the dishwasher, wiped down some counters, and cleaned up the bathroom a little, all the while taking small breaks in between.

I did get out and go to Walmart a couple days ago.  I bought a few things for the hospital bag…mostly travel size toiletries: shampoo, soap, deodorant, toothpaste, lotion, things like that.  I put it all in a gallon size ziplock bag. I figure that’s easier than trying to remember to throw all that stuff in the hospital bag at the last minute.  I also bought a few things to make some homemade sugar scrubs for Christmas!  It was super cheap and easy.  And it gave me something to do.

No bump pic today, but I am including a gnarly picture of my belly button.  Because it’s weird looking.  I’ve been overweight pretty much my whole life to some degree or another, and carry most of my weight in my belly.  I never thought or expected my belly button to be an outie.  And while I’m not quite sure what it is at this point…I don’t think it’s still an innie.  It’s somewhere in between.  And it’s weird.  Just look!

 

Baby is the size of a winter melon!  {What in the world is a winter melon?!}  Yay!  Baby has reached full term.  He likely measures around 18.9 to 20.9 inches and weighs about 6.2 to 9.2 pounds.  He’s gaining about a 1/2 ounce each day.  During week 37, baby’s practicing some skills:  inhaling, exhaling, sucking, gripping, and blinking.  He’s also getting his first sticky poop, called meconium, ready for his first diaper!

How far along? 37 weeks (and 4 days)…Full term! it could be any time now!

Total weight gain: I think I’m still at about +16lbs. I had actually lost a pound at my last appointment, though I’m not sure how that’s possible!

Maternity clothes? Right now I’m mostly in yoga pants/pajama pants and big t-shirts. Since I’m on bed rest I have no reason to get dressed lol. I am glad I don’t have to squeeze into my scrubs anymore because they were getting very uncomfortable.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. But my old ones are stretching out a bit.

Sleep:  Horrible.  I’ve gotten myself in a bad habit of staying up late since being off work.  Mostly because I have such a hard time falling to sleep anyway.  And the last week EVERY SINGLE NIGHT I end up with a stuffy nose after laying down for bed! I’m fine all day after I blow my nose in the morning, but as soon as I go to bed, I’m up within a few hours not able to breath. Not sure what the deal is with that.

Best moment this week: One of my friends came over yesterday and painted my toes for me!

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach. Believe it or not I actually miss having something to do during the day. Not quite sure I miss my job, but I do miss having a purpose lol.

Movement:  Yep.  Some days not as much as others, but still quite a bit.  Sometimes I feel like he’s sticking his butt out when my stomach gets real tight and hard, but I kinda feel like those might be contractions?

Food cravings:   Sugar. I have been craving anything sugary this week. Seriously, all I want is candy. I’ve destroyed a box of ice cream sandwiches.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not much.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  Frequent contractions, but nothing that progresses or has a pattern. They aren’t really painful either.  Oh, and here’s an interesting one.  TMI TIME, FOLKS! I’m about to talk about poop, so feel free to skip if you like.  I’ve been having a LOT of diarrhea.  I know.  Gross.  But it is what it is.  It’s all the time, no matter what I eat, and it happens very shortly after I eat as well.  I don’t feel bad, so I know its not a bug.  I just need to go, and when I do that’s that.  I’ve done a little reading into the matter and apparently this could be your body’s way of preparing for labor.  Your body is essentially “cleaning itself out” and preparing for the process that is to come.  Additionally, as you get closer to labor, most of your abdominal and rectal muscle begin to relax to all the baby passage…this also contributes to frequent and loose stool. Learn something new every day, huh?  While we’re on the subject of poop (might as well at this point) is anyone else worried about pooping on the table?? It happens. I know it does. And I know its stupid to worry about. But seriously?? Didn’t I go through enough to get here without shitting in front of everyone in the room? Maybe my body will have “cleansed itself” enough by that point and there won’t be anything left.  We can only hope!

Symptoms:  Fatigue, bloat/gas, VERY frequent urination.  Sciatic nerve pain. Heartburn and indigestion.  Shortness of breath.  Dizziness/lightheadedness. Braxton Hicks/actual contractions.

Belly Button in or out?  In, but it looks weird. Seriously. See picture below.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit when I first put them on. After a few hours they get tight.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy! And tired.  And anxious.

Looking forward to:  Christmas. And meeting my baby boy. Which ever comes first!

Next appointment: Tuesday, December 17th.

Weird Belly Button!

Weird Belly Button!

37 Weeks

Exactly today.  It’s insane how far along I am.  Doesn’t seem possible!

Yesterday I finally had my follow up/weekly checkup with the doc.  My blood pressure was down to 144/83 and there wasn’t any protein in my urine, so Dr. L was very happy with that.  I also managed to lose a pound somehow, although I’m sure how since I feel like all I’ve done is eat and sleep all week.  Probably due to not retaining as much fluid with the blood pressure being down. But still….I’ve REALLY liked the food this week! Haha.. He wants me to continue the bp medication and “bed rest” because it seems to be working.  I did get permission to do “remedial” tasks around the house and short shopping trips if I’m climbing the walls, but he wants me to spend the majority of the day resting off my feet.  I’m thinking I’m going to at least need a lunch or dinner date with someone who isn’t my husband at some point…I love him and all but I think we’re starting to get on each other’s nerves lol!

The rest of my appointment was good as well, although I did get the biggest scare of my life!  Doc pulled out the Doppler and stuck it on my belly.  Usually I hear an instant thumping of that baby boy’s heart.  We’ve never had a hard time finding it, with the exception of my first OB visit, and we were just too early at that point.  This time, he moved the wand around to a couple of places, switched sides of my belly, pushed around a little bit….I’m sure this took all of 15-20 seconds, but as I laid there on that table NOT hearing my baby’s heartbeat at 37 freakin’ weeks, I panicked.  My face got hot, I felt tears well up, my body was pretty much paralyzed.  Then all of sudden, there it was. Thump thump thump.  “Is that him?!”  I asked, a little too franticly.  Dr. L assured me he was fine, and I admitted I had started to panic.  He said he was laying funny and “running” from him, so it just took him a few seconds to find the correct position.  I’m sure that’s normal, but I still didn’t like it.

I think I said before, I’m having more paranoia the closer I get to delivering.  I had a lot in the beginning of my pregnancy, and while it never went completely away, I got to a point where I felt mostly safe.  You’d think that in these last couple weeks it’d be smooth sailing without a care in the world besides when is this kid gonna get out of me.  But for me its like the total opposite.  I’m terrified of coming this far, of keeping him alive this long, only for something to happen at the last minute.  I’m obsessed with whether or not he’s moving enough, and I poke and prod on him way too much just for my own sanity.  I’m sad that my pregnancy is coming to an end, but at the same time I’ll be so happy and relieved when I can finally hold him and know that he is healthy and safe.

After my meltdown with the Doppler, Dr. L checked my cervix.  Nothing.  Not dilated.  Not soft.  Locked up tight.  I was a little surprised.  I was thinking this little guy might get here before Christmas.  Things can change fast, I know that.  And even if I was dilated, I could be at a 1 or 2 for weeks.  So none of this means anything.  Except he’s just not ready yet.  So we continue to wait.  Dr. L did go over some things with me about labor, and said if I felt like I was in labor, to not ask questions and go to L&D to get checked.  I had a few questions as far as what to look for…he assured me I’d know.  So that’s that.  We just wait, and I go back next Tuesday for my 38 week checkup.

In other news, I’ve got baby boy’s newborn photos all set up…sort of.  I spoke with the photographer I decided on and all I have to do is get in touch with her a day or two after he is born.  She likes to do newborn shoots 5-10 days after they are born.  I LOVE her work.  And she is fairly cheap, considering how talented she is.  She only photographs newborn through 1st birthday, so she does a great job working with babies since that is all she does. I’m pretty excited for his pictures and will definitely share some here when they are done!

So…so far all is well.  We are just playing the waiting game.  Bed rest is a bummer,  but it could be worse.  I plan on making a quick shopping trip tomorrow for some things I need for my hospital bag while hubby is at work.  I need out of this house, and Dr. L did ok me for a short trip to the store 😉 .  So I’ll leave you with my 36 weeks 6 days bump pic from yesterday.  It’s the first time I’d been dressed and fixed my hair and makeup in 7 days.  the first time I’d put pants on 3 days.  Don’t judge me.  LOL.

36 weeks 6 days

36 weeks 6 days

36 Weeks 3 Days

Well, “bed rest” is going swell.  I use quotes because I don’t like the term bed rest.  Dr. L even told me not to just lay around in bed all day…I should definitely move from the bed to the couch to the recliner and so forth.  Ugh.

I was supposed to go back for a follow up yesterday, but our area was hit with a winter storm that left us with 2 inches of ice covered with 5-6 inches of snow.  So not only was I not getting my pregnant self out in that mess, but my doctor’s office was closed anyway.  So I’ll probably go in Monday, weather permitting.  Dr. L had told me that if the weather was bad and I was feeling ok (meaning not having any symptoms we talked about) then not to worry about my check up Friday and we would follow up next week. So right now I think things are ok.  I’m taking my blood pressure med like I’m supposed to and laying around doing pretty much nothing beside eat and occasionally shower.

As miserable as these last few weeks have been for me, I’ve found myself getting really sad that I’m nearing the end of my pregnancy.  It seriously seems like it flew by SO fast!  It’s crazy to think that in another week or two I won’t be pregnant anymore.  I mean, I’ll have a whole new thing to be happy about, but the pregnancy part will be over.  And I don’t care if you love or hate being pregnant, that’s really, really sad for someone who struggled with infertility.  I know our goal is to have a BABY.  But really, all that time spent trying and trying, and medicating and injecting and temperature taking and peeing on sticks…it was all to get PREGNANT.  It’s nuts when it finally happens.  And now I’ve blinked and it’s almost over.  😦  It’s probably the hormones, but it all makes me sad.

Ok.  Since I have nothing else to do, here’s my usual update…and a pic of the winter storm that snowed us in.

 

Baby is the size of a honeydew melon!  He’s still in the 17.2 to 18.7-inch and 4.2 to 5.8-pound range and continues to beef up.  Your once-poppy-seed would probably be able to breathe on his own if he was born right now.  (If not, he’d probably need some TLC, but he’d likely be okay.)  Most of his systems and his organs, such as his liver and kidneys, are in working order at 36 weeks.

How far along? 36 weeks (and 3 days)…not too much longer!

Total weight gain: Not exactly sure, but I’m guessing +16-17lbs.

Maternity clothes? Right now I’m mostly in yoga pants/pajama pants and big t-shirts. Since I’m on bed rest I have no reason to get dressed lol. I am glad I don’t have to squeeze into my scrubs anymore because they were getting very uncomfortable.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. But my old ones are stretching out a bit.

Sleep:  Not getting very much of it at night.  Luckily bed rest means I can nap during the day whenever I want, and I do 🙂

Best moment this week: Watching the snow come down! I LOVE snow! But it stinks I can’t go out and play in it this year 😦

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach. Sleeping at all.

Movement:  He’s still rolling around in there like crazy, but I can tell he’s running out of room. Sometimes I can feel him stretch out from way down deep in my pelvis all the way up into my ribs! It’s pretty uncomfortable for me, but it’s neat to feel at the same time.  I think I’ll miss feeling him move the most when he’s here.

Food cravings:   Since we’ve been snowed in all I’ve wanted was a cheesy bean and rice burrito from Taco Bell.  Don’t judge.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not much.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  A few contractions here and there.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, bloat/gas, VERY frequent urination.  Sciatic nerve pain. Heartburn and indigestion. Shortness of breath.  Dizziness/lightheadedness. Braxton Hicks/actual contractions.

Belly Button in or out?  In, but it looks weird.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit when I first put them on. After a few hours they get tight.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy! And tired.  And cranky a lot.

Looking forward to:  Not much to look forward to since I can’t do anything lol…

Next appointment: Was supposed to be yesterday, so hopefully Monday December 9th.

Here’s our winter wonderland!

LOVE the snow!

LOVE the snow!

36 Weeks & Bedrest.

Yep.  I am officially on modified bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy.  I was NOT expecting this at all.

I went in for my check up yesterday afternoon, expecting things to be uneventful, as usual.  After all, I’ve had a pretty typical and “normal” pregnancy thus far.  The nurse checked my blood pressure and asked if it had been high.  I told her I hadn’t been checking it but that I hadn’t felt bad or anything.  It was 164/98, which was enough to cause concern.  On top of that, I had a “little” protein in my urine as well.

Dr. L came in and swabbed me for the Strep B test, then did my first cervical check…not fun!  It didn’t hurt but it certainly wasn’t comfortable.  I am not dilated yet, but he said he could feel the baby’s head already down against my cervix, so he’s ready to go.  Baby’s heartbeat sounded good, no concerns at this point as far as baby goes.  After I got dressed Dr. L wanted me to sit a little while and then have my blood pressure checked again.  The second time it was still 162/98.  So then Dr. L said, “Well, you’re off work!”

I just started my half days at work this week!  I was so excited to be getting off at lunchtime and still have most of the day to come home and catch up on things like finishing the nursery and packing my hospital bag before I get too tired in the evenings to do so.  Now I’m stranded on the couch or recliner and can’t even go shop for the things that I do still need.  I hate to whine about being ordered to be lazy, and of course I’m going to do what I’m supposed to to protect my baby, but this momma doesn’t have time for that!

On top of that, we had planned for my paychecks to be cut in half these last few weeks…we had not planned for me to NOT have a paycheck at all the last few weeks.  I get my last full check tomorrow and that’s it until I go back from maternity leave.  We are officially a one income family for at least the next 3 months.  And while my husband has a good job and makes decent money, we’ve never had to rely on just his income before.  It’s going to be an adjustment for sure.  Especially with a new addition to the equation in a few weeks.

Anyway… Dr. L put me on a blood pressure medication three times a day, ordered me to “mostly rest” but encouraged me to not lay down all day every day due the risk of blood clots and whatnot, and wants to see my back on Friday morning to check everything out again and go from there.  Hopefully the medication coupled with the “rest” will bring my blood pressure down enough to keep this baby cooking another 2 to 3 more weeks.  Dr. L’s goal is to make it to 38 or 39 weeks before we deliver.  If my blood pressure stays up, plans may change.  Right now we are hoping for the best.  I’m ready to meet this little guy, but I want him to be ready and healthy as well.

This new and unexpected development has brought back a lot of paranoia and fears that I had previously let go of.  Dr. L gave me a list of symptoms to watch out for and to come in immediately if I have any.  He also mentioned that as long as I’m having good fetal movement baby is most likely doing fine.  So now I’m obsessed with how much the baby moves.  And I’m constantly poking and prodding him if I haven’t felt him “enough”.  I’m sure he hates it!  I never worried before this.  Some things online say you should feel at least 6 “kicks” an hour.  I’ve never kept up with how much he moves an hour.  Most of the time during the day I don’t even feel him, mainly because I’m on my feet and moving all day at work and I’m pretty sure he usually sleeps at that time (from the movement, maybe?).   I’m sure everything is fine, but now I panic pretty easily if I haven’t felt him in a while.  And it’s also “normal” for his movement to slow down at this point, so that doesn’t help either.  Come on kid, just give me a foot in the rib every half hour or so and I’ll be fine! 😉

I also had a little bit of spotting last night.  This is the first time this entire pregnancy that I have wiped and seen blood.  It sent me into a panic as well.  In the beginning I looked for blood every time I went to the bathroom.  But I fell out of that habit.  Last night was a complete surprise, even though it shouldn’t have been since I had my first cervical check.  I called my friend from work, who’s mom was Dr. L’s nurse until she retired a few months ago (I miss her!) and asked if she could call her mom and ask her about the spotting for me.  Her mom said it was perfectly normal after a cervical check, especially if he had to get a little “rough”, which I’d say he did.  So I didn’t panic last night, and the spotting was pretty much gone by this morning.  I did call the office today just to check in about it, and the nurse there told me the same thing.  I just wish they would have warned me about the possibility of spotting!  I’m sure he was more concerned about the blood pressure and protein in my urine though, so I’m going to let it slide.

So, there we have it.  I have so much to do and am really almost unable to do most of it!  I have no idea if I’m going to make it past Christmas or not.  I don’t have a bag packed.  We don’t even have a car seat yet!  Calling my mom today about that because she is supposed to be getting that for us.  I hate not having a timeline to rely on.  I’m just hoping everything is good on Friday and we don’t have hurry things up too much.  The weather is supposed to be bad here on Friday.  Sleet, ice, snow.  So I may have to possibly wait until Monday to even get checked, depending on how bad the roads get.  Dr. L said that if the weather is bad and I’m feeling ok (i.e. not having any of the symptoms we talked about) then not to come and reschedule.   So we’ll see how that goes.

I guess for now I’m just going to lay around the house and watch TV.  Maybe read a book.  Or two.