PCOS Awareness

Just a quick post to remind everyone that September is PCOS Awareness Month!

 

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Baby Nugget – 17 Weeks!

Baby is the size of a {really big} onion!  Baby continues to beef up.  Now he’s about 5.1 inches long and weighs 5.9 ounces.  Not only is he putting some meat on those bones, he is also growing a stronger, thicker umbilical cord too!

How far along? 17 weeks

Total weight gain: -5lbs. I swear, I am eating!

Maternity clothes? Not Yet. But I might do some online shopping today 😉

Stretch marks?  No new ones. Ha!

Sleep:  SO. RESTLESS. And I found out this week I can no longer sleep on my stomach. I don’t have a ‘bump’ in the way yet, but there’s all kinds of pressure if I try to lay on it. Baby definitely doesn’t like it! Roll over, mom!

Best moment this week:  Finding out we’re having a sweet baby boy!

Miss Anything? Sleeping through the night. On my stomach.

Movement:  Maybe?? Not sure. Sometimes I feel pressure and gas bubbly type things going on.

Food cravings:  Sour Patch Kids.  Chocolate milk.  Chinese food.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Certain smells and drainage in my throat. Brushing my teeth. And the Braum’s cheeseburger I ate the other night.

Gender prediction: Sweet baby boy!

Labor Signs:  No, thank you.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, sore nipples this week, mild nausea, bloat/gas, super sense of smell. Occasional round ligament pain. Sciatic nerve pain! Heartburn and indigestion! Leg cramps at night.

Belly Button in or out?  In.  I have a pretty chunky belly, so I imagine it’ll stay.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy!

Looking forward to:  Sleeping this weekend!

Next appointment:  August 6th

Baby Nugget – 14 & 15 Weeks!

I’ve been a bad blogger lately!  I’ve let myself get so behind, so I’m catching up today.  I’m going to combine my 14 and 15 week updates and hopefully I can keep up from here on out!

Week 14 – Baby
is the size of a lemon!  At week 14, your baby is 3.4 inches and 1.5 ounces;
he’s almost doubled in weight since last week and keeps on growing.  Right now,
baby is probably sucking his thumb and wiggling his toes!  And he’s growing
lanugo, a thin, peach-fuzz-like hair, all over his body — it will help him keep
warm.
Week 15 – Baby is the size of a {big} navel orange!  The average fetus at week 15
weighs 2.5 ounces and measures 4 inches — and her proportions are becoming even
more normal, since her legs now out measure her arms.  Baby’s making lots of
progress:  her joints and limbs can all move now, and she might even be
hiccuping in there!

How far along? 15 weeks! I am AMAZED.

Total weight gain:  -3lbs last week, -3.5lbs this week.

Maternity clothes? Nope. Although I’m thinking of starting to look. I wear scrubs everyday, so they’re pretty loose and comfy still.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. Ha!

Sleep:  Please?! I’m so restless at night.

Best moment this week:  Hearing Baby Nugget’s heartbeat 🙂

Miss Anything? Sleeping through the night.

Movement:  Not for a long while I imagine.

Food cravings: Ribs.  And Hubby brought some home last night!  Yum!

Anything making you queasy or sick: I have a lot of drainage at night right now, and when I wake up in the morning a lot of mucous has drained down into my throat.  It gags me and causes me to throw up in the mornings 😦

Gender prediction: Somedays I feel girl, other days I feel boy! Who knows!

Labor Signs:  No, thank you.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, sore boobs, vomiting, bloat, super sense of smell. Occasional round ligament pain. Sciatic nerve pain!

Belly Button in or out?  In.  I have a pretty chunky belly, so I imagine it’ll stay.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Pretty happy!

Looking forward to:  Gender scan in two weeks!!!! Eek!

Next appointment:  July 23rd, 17 week gender scan! Is Baby Nugget a girl or boy?!

First OB Appointment, Paranoia, & Baby Nugget – 11 Weeks!

Whew.  A lot to catch up on.  Let’s get started.

My first OB appointment with Dr. L was on Tuesday.  It was good, if not uneventful compared to my trips to the RE.  Unfortunately its a pretty busy office and you can usually expect a long wait, whereas at the RE’s we were usually always called back within 5 minutes, and definitely no longer than 10.  Hubby doesn’t do well waiting for long periods of time.  He’s almost like a small child in that way.  It’s a little annoying, and by the end of our appointment I was threatening that he was never coming with me again.

The first thing we did was pay our deposit and set up our payment schedule for the next five months.  Holy moly, Baby Nugget’s payments are more than my car payment!  Now, all this is based on our due date, which is now January 1st.  I’ve already met my deductible for the year.  But if we deliver on January 1st or later, I have to pay next year’s deductible.  So basically if we can have this baby on December 31st, we’ll save $1500.  I mean, who knows what will happen between now and then…we may go early, we may go late.

I was finally called back and they weighed me, took my blood pressure, made me pee in a cup, and then made me undress completely.  Apparently I’m a little overdue for my pap, so they decided I could go ahead and do that also since I was there.  Yay.  I just LOVE surprise pap smears!  They also gave us a goodie bag full of magazines, diapers, formula, breast milk containers, and a trimester by trimester planner.

When Dr. L came in he was pretty excited.  He almost couldn’t believe that I had gotten pregnant so fast.  We talked a little bit about what meds and things Dr. P had me on (I feel like Follistim was the missing piece for me), and I told him that we were lucky after our 1st IUI.  He gave me a due date of January 1st based on my last period and IUI date, which could change depending on how Baby Nugget is measuring down the road.  After my pap, he told me not to freak out but my cervix may bleed just a little and that it was completely normal.  To which I replied, “Are you trying to give me a heart attack?!”

After that he got out the Doppler so we could check Baby Nugget’s heart beat.  After looking for a while, I was beginning to get nervous.  It’s hard to find on the Doppler sometimes when you’re so early, and if the baby is laying a certain way also.  I carry most of my weight in my belly, so I wondered if the extra belly fat was making it hard to find as well, although Dr. L would never say so.  Regardless, we couldn’t find it with the Doppler and I was starting to get very nervous.  Dr. L was sure everything was fine, but said he wasn’t about to send me out of there for a month without me know that the baby was ok.  So we were told to sit tight and wait for the ultrasound tech to come get us.

Heather showed up to get us.  She’s done plenty of ultrasounds on me in the past, and was excited to hear that things were going so well for us.  She took us to a room that I’ve never been to with a pretty old school ultrasound machine setup.  She told me to go ahead and get on the bed.  I looked around.  There was nowhere for me to undress like the regular ultrasound rooms they have.  She just stood there waiting for me, and hubby was sitting in the corner.   There was a stack of sheets on a table to cover your bottom half with so I guessed she just wanted me to go ahead.  I mean, she’s seen me naked plenty when she was probing me in the other ultrasound room.   So I kick off my shoes and have my pants halfway down to my knees before she says, “Oh, no, we’re just going to do it on your belly.”   Uhh…oh, ok.  Let me just put my pants back on.   A little embarrassing?  Yes.  Comical?  Of course.  I apologized for the strip tease and we all laughed as I jumped on the table, fully clothed.

She explained that this was the old, OLD ultrasound machine that they used when they are backed up.  Tuesday’s are pregnant lady days, so they were pretty busy.  We were just checking for the heartbeat, so this machine would do.  The picture was super fuzzy, especially since my bladder wasn’t full like its supposed to be for abdominal ultrasounds.   But we could make out a fuzzy little Nugget wiggling around on the screen.   As usual, Nugget was moving those arms and legs like crazy, which could have made it hard to find on the Doppler as well.   We couldn’t hear the heartbeat on this machine, but we could see it.  She told me it was 146bpm.  I’m not sure if she had to count that or if the ghetto machine told her that.  I  was a tiny bit concerned that it was 178 the week before and now it was 146.  She told me it was completely normal.  The heartbeat starts out a little low, then peaks around weeks 8-10, getting up to sometimes the 180’s, then begins to come down a little bit.  Anything between 120 and 160 is normal, and she assured me it was a perfectly healthy heartbeat.  Of course, I’m always paranoid, so…

Dr. L said he would see me back in a month.  Like any other normal pregnant woman.  It feels kinda nice to be on a normal schedule, but at the same time my weekly checkups helped keep me sane.  How can I go 4 weeks without seeing Nugget or hearing it’s heartbeat?  At one point the worry had subsided a little.  Now it’s back full force.

An example of my paranoia:

Dr. L asked me if the morning sickness was going away, to which a replied a very enthusiastic NO.  I told him Dr. P was a little stingy with the Zofran, so Dr. L gave me another script for some, saying that it was perfectly safe to take and to take it whenever I needed it.  So I’ve been a little more generous with the Zofran this week.  And it really does make me feel better.  Much better.  But when I’m not feeling sick, its makes me a little nervous.  Does that mean something is wrong with Baby Nugget?  As long as I’m sick I know Baby Nugget is kicking around in there.  Stupid logic, I know.  I don’t know what I’m going to do when the morning {all day} sickness finally goes away.

I’ve thought about buying a fetal Doppler to have at home.  But then I’m afraid that I won’t be able to find the heartbeat and then I’ll be an even bigger basketcase than I already am.  I’ve read that they are pretty tricky to use and a lot of women don’t have much luck with them.  Does anyone have one/ever used one?  What kind or brand do you recommend?

Ok, let’s get on with this Nugget update.  It’s a little late this week, but better late than never!

 

Baby is the size of a lime!  Your fetus is about 1.6 inches long, and she’s got about a 1:1 head-to-body ratio.  She now weighs in at about .25 ounces.  By week 11, her tooth buds, hair follicles, and nail beds are forming.  Her skin is see-through, but she’s on her way to looking more like a baby.  Her fingers and toes aren’t webbed any more, and she’s moving fluidly and gracefully in there, even through you can’t feel it.

How far along? 11 weeks

Total weight gain:  -5lbs as of earlier this week.  They may have changed since I pigged out on Olive Garden last night. Thank you, Zofran!

Maternity clothes? Nope.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. Ha!

Sleep:  I haven’t been sleeping well this week.  But I want to!

Best moment this week:  First OB appointment and being treated like a regular pregnant woman.

Miss Anything? Nah.

Movement:  Not for a long while I imagine.

Food cravings: I’d been craving Olive Garden salad and breadsticks and finally got it last night!

Anything making you queasy or sick: If I don’t eat for a while or let myself get too hungry.  Smells seems to a big trigger this week.  A stinky patient at work made me hurl Thursday.

Gender prediction: No strong feelings one way or the other. As long as its healthy, I’m happy!

Labor Signs:  No, thank you.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, sore boobs, morning sickness/afternoon sickness/evening sickness….basically ALL DAY SICKNESS, bloat, and most things smell TERRIBLE.

Belly Button in or out?  In.  I have a pretty chunky belly, so I imagine it’ll stay.

Wedding rings on or off?  They fit.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  I am happy and queasy!

Looking forward to:  Being able to announce our big news.  Next week may be the week for the girls at work.

Next appointment:  July 9th.  Should be almost 15 weeks!

Baby Nugget – 7 Weeks

{This is a VERY pregnancy related post!}

Ok.  A friend of mine who struggled with infertility and pregnancy loss for a while longer than I started doing weekly updates when she got pregnant through IVF in December.  I thought it was kinda neat, but was hesitant to do so because I’m always afraid I’m jumping the gun and going to jinx something.  This particular friend {who also happened to be my amazing hair dresser before her pregnancy and bed rest…my hair misses her!}  started her updates at 5 weeks, even though she had previously experienced a pregnancy loss at 17 weeks.  She is now 25 weeks along with a healthy baby girl.  I figure that if she can suck it up and enjoy her precious time with her baby even after all she went through, I guess I can too.  So I’m starting at 7 weeks, which would’ve been 2 days ago on Thursday.  I’m going to try to update every Thursday from here on out, but we’ll see how it goes…;)

Baby is the size of a blueberry!  Your .51-inch embryo doesn’t exactly tip the scales just yet, but she’s developing like crazy.  She’s already doubled in size since last week.  And at week seven, baby’s arms and leg joints are now forming, and her brain and heart are becoming more complex.
How far along?  7 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain:  -1.5 lbs  {I’m not trying to lose weight at all right now…I’m chalking this up to morning sickness and loss of appetite!}

Maternity clothes? Nope.  My daily wardrobe consists of scrubs.  Most of my scrub pants fit me pretty loosely because I like for them to be comfortable throughout my work day.  I did notice this week that some of my scrub pants are fitting a little better around the waist.

Stretch marks?  No new ones. Ha!

Sleep:  Can’t get enough of it!

Best moment this week:  Getting to see Baby Nugget on the ultrasound Monday 🙂

Miss Anything?  Sushi.  The girls at work go for sushi for lunch every pay day.  Just the thought of it makes me gag now.

Movement:  Not for a long while I imagine.

Food cravings:  Not really.  Although sour candy tends to ease the nausea a bit.  And Apple Juice tastes unusually amazing this week.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  The smell of ground beef cooking.  Bleh.

Gender prediction: No strong feelings one way or the other.

Labor Signs:  No, thank you.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, sore boobs, nausea, bloat, occasional lightheadedness, and most things smell TERRIBLE.

Belly Button in or out?  In.  I have a pretty chunky belly, so I imagine it’ll stay in quite a while.

Wedding rings on or off?  Off, but not because they don’t fit.  I don’t wear them to work because of wearing gloves and washing my hands all day and taking them off and on all the time.  It’s just easier to keep them at home so they don’t get lost.  So, on, but on the weekends. 🙂

Happy or Moody most of the time:  I am happy, mostly.  I get cranky and moody at work because I’m tired and don’t feel good.

Looking forward to:  Our next ultrasound on Wednesday! Can’t wait to hear that little heartbeat again!

Alright!  Another thing my friend blogs is a weekly gender prediction, based on old wives’ tales!  It seemed pretty fun, so I may try to throw that in there, too! 🙂  Here’s what’s up first…

Ancient Chinese Birth Chart

This one got a little confusing for me.  I found a lot of charts online where you simply found the age that you were when you conceived {for me, 29} and the month in which you conceived {for me, April}.  Based on all of those, Baby Nugget is a girl!  But, not so fast! When I was consulting the Google, I also found that some believe the chart wasn’t accurate unless you converted the numbers to the lunar age and lunar month.  I found a few different websites that automatically converted it for you, and I got a lot of different results from each one.  Some of them predicted Baby Nugget a boy, others stuck with the girl.  The one I’m posting below is from babycenter.com.  I even got mix-matched results from it, as well.  If I put in my due date, its says GIRL.  If I put in my conception date {using the day of the IUI}, it says BOY.  The one I’m posting is using my due date, based on what Baby Nugget was measuring at our ultrasound.

Predict Your Baby’s Sex

The Chinese chart says you’re having a girl!
 
We converted the dates for you: Your Chinese lunar age at pregnancy was 32 and the Chinese lunar month in which you conceived was September. Find the place on the chart where these values meet – it reveals your baby’s sex!
Remember, this tool has a 50-50 chance of being right (and it’s just for fun). If you’re pregnant and really want to know whether you’re having a boy or a girl, talk to your doctor about getting a mid-pregnancy ultrasound.
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So, there we have it.  I still don’t understand the lunar age/lunar month business, but based on baby’s measurements the first prediction is GIRL!  We’ll see what next week has to say about that! 😉

{PS: A lot of my blogger friends have been blessed with BFP’s recently!  Feel free to steal these ideas from me if you want! I stole them from someone else, afterall 😉 }

Only CD23???

Let me tell ya. This whole cycle has been just…weird. It is ridiculous to me that I’m only on CD23. How can that be?? It seems crazy that I could be getting my BFP {or BFN} any day now. Especially since here lately I don’t usually expect AF until CD33-35.  I’m trying to take all this as a good sign. My mature follicles ready on CD12. Actually ovulating like a normal person on CD14 {with the help of a trigger, of course}. I know that all that really matters is how many dpo you are, but its still so strange to me since I don’t even usually start peeing on a stick until CD28 or so and my beta is scheduled on CD27! Just hard to wrap my head around. Hmph.

On another note…

Still cramping. Almost like AF could show up any day now. Which again, throws me off since I wouldn’t normally be expecting her for another 10 days or so. My boobies are still sore. I know there’s no way the trigger is still in my system, and they aren’t near as sore as they were after I first triggered. But still pretty tender. Which is normal to me at this point, except I usually chalk it up to the progesterone. Except this cycle I’m not taking progesterone. Because my numbers were phenomenal. Again. Weirdness.

But we’re not jumping to any conclusions here. There’s probably a logical explanation for all of this. There always is, right? Regardless, I bought a box of 3 First Response today. One for tomorrow, one for Sunday, and one for Monday. I still have some Wondfo’s in there, but I’m not completely sure that I trust them at this point. Hubby asked last night if it was time to take a test yet or not, which surprised me since he’s usually pretty quiet about everything until I let him in on what’s going on. Good to know I’m not the only one thinking and stressing about it this time haha 😉

*sigh* I try really hard, and it may not seem like it, but I can’t help but have a pretty positive outlook on this cycle. It’s always dangerous to think that way. Usually if I have a feeling one way or another it ends up being a big slap in the face. But I can’t help but think that if it was ever going to happen, it has to be now, this cycle. Everything has just been too….perfect.

If anybody needs me I’ll just be over here…waiting for this other shoe to drop.

7dpiui….and counting.

This is going to be a quick post.

I’m 7dpiui today and 9dp trigger. I had some mild cramping yesterday that slipped over into today along with a very full feeling and just plain not feeling too hot this afternoon at work. My progesterone level on Monday was 21, which is actually crazy high tor me, almost twice what it usually is. I’m trying not to read too much into such a beautiful number, but I will say I’m happy that I get to skip the progesterone suppositories…at least for now.

Does any of this mean anything? Who the heck knows. As usual its way too early to tell and my TWW is dragging by so slow it might as well be going backwards.

As you can see I’m still trying to manage my expectations carefully. But I do want to say thank you for all the encouraging IUI stories 🙂

That’s all for now. Goodnight all!

And We Wait…

First, thanks for all the good luck wishes! I really appreciate it 🙂

IUI went well on Wednesday. It was a long looong day. Hubby and I left home at 5:30am and drove through storms for 2 1/2 hours to get to his appointment at 8am. After he made the ‘deposit’ we had to find something to do for an hour and a half before it was time for my appointment. Let me tell ya, I don’t care how big a city it is…there’s not too much to do at 8 in the morning in the middle of a thunderstorm.  We finally made it back to the clinic at 9:30 for my appointment time, at which time we found out we had previously overpaid and had a credit on our account so we had to pay zero dollars for the IUI {what?!}. It wasn’t too long after that until I was taken back to an exam room.

Naked from the waist down and feet in the stirrups and we were soon on our way. The nurse confirmed Hubby’s name and social with that on the syringe full of his little swimmers, and then informed us that he had provided us with a whopping 107 million little guys to inseminate into my uterus. Way to go, hubby! 😉  {I later threatened Hubby, saying that out of 107 million, at least one of them should know what to do, right?!}

I must say, Dr. P is very quick and very good at what he does. I heard him say I’d feel a little cramp, and I kept bracing myself for it, but before I could feel anything at all he was up and patting me on the shoulder telling me he had his fingers crossed for me. How could he be done so fast?! And just like that, the Two Week Wait began.

The egg timer finally went off, I got up and dressed, and we were out the door to head home. I only had some mild cramping the rest of the day, mostly a big pressure feeling in my uterus area. We stopped to eat and swung by the grocery store on the way home. We finally made it home at 2:30pm. By 2:35 I was asleep on the couch. I was exhausted!

So, here’s what we know:

-I had 2 very large fully grown mature follicles on my right ovary.

-107 million sperm now occupy my uterus.

I’m not exactly sure where that puts my odds of conceiving this cycle, but I’m choosing to be cautiously optimistic while majorly keeping a reality check on my expectations. Truth is, I’m not sure that I’ve ever heard of an IUI success story. I’m sure it happens, but I’m usually reading about the ones that didn’t.

Oh, well. No use dwelling on it. We’ll all know in eleven days one way or another. 🙂

Twins?

Twin follicles, that is.

Today was my midcycle ultrasound, and I must say, as surprised as I was to see the two big fat mature follicles sitting on my right ovary, it was nothing compared to my husband’s face turning white as a sheet when Hannah looked up and said, “Looks like a perfect setup for twins!”

Ha 🙂 I’m not banking on twins, but I’ll accept that it is a possibility. In light of the two beautiful follicles we’ve decided to go ahead with the IUI this week. I triggered at 10pm tonight and we go in first thing Wednesday morning to do the deed. Just hoping that one (or both!) of these follicles work out!

Time for bed for me now! Had to stay up way past my bedtime to trigger tonight 😉 Night!

Still A Bad Blogger…

I’ve been horrible at updating lately. To be fair, there’s not too much to update on.

Beta was a BFN, which I expected since I compulsively tested the entire weekend before.  I’m back on CD10 today, this will be my 3rd day of Follistim, and I go to the RE on Monday, CD12, for my midcycle ultrasound.  We are hoping to do IUI this cycle, as long as everything looks good and I am ovulating on the right ovary.  If everything goes along like my last two cycles, I’m anticipating the IUI to happen on either Friday or Saturday.  But that’s going to be a wait and see what happens deal.

I have been in a horrible mood this last week or so.  Cranky. Bitchy, even. So irritable it hurts at times. And EXHAUSTED, oh my gosh, soooo exhausted.  I got home from work yesterday, fed the dog, cooked supper, and laid down on the couch (my BRAND NEW couch, might I add, because we got new furniture last weekend! Yay!) at around 8:45pm.  I fell asleep. Hubby left me there and went to bed. He woke me up at 4am when he got up for work. I got off the couch and crawled into our bed. I did not get back out of bed until 10am. I just can’t believe I slept for 13 hours, almost 14.  But I’ve been so friggin’ tired this week!! I’m blaming it on the meds.  I blame everything on the meds these days it seems.

I haven’t been the nicest person to my husband these last two or three days (which might be the reason he left me on the couch last night…HA!), and considering, he’s dealt with it well.  I know I haven’t been the easiest person to live with the last 2 years, and he’s made it look easy somehow.  I really do love him for that.  I know that a lot of relationships and marriages would not have survived what we have been faced with.  I know a lot of marriages who didn’t survive and weren’t faced with anything like this.  So I have to give my hubby props.  I love him for loving me through all this.

Ok. I’ll try to be less horrible at updating this week.  Right now I have a book with my name on it that I’ve been too tired to read all week! I’m finishing it TODAY. 🙂

Happy Saturday!